I realize that the title of this blog isn’t even close to being positive, but I had to express myself. I’m not doing well at all in the way of remaining positive. My job prospects are gloomy and not getting any brighter.
A week ago I thought for certain I had a new source of income. Now, a week after turning in my first assignment during a sort of probationary period and not having heard back, I realize I’m not getting another assignment. (This possibility was spelled out in the contract, but I thought that after having passed the writing/editing test and then having been entrusted with even a first batch of entries, I’d be a shoo-in for receiving more. No such luck.)
So, I continue to spend hours every day scouring the help-wanted ads, aka the online job boards, searching for anything that looks like a match. I send out at least one or two resumes a week. Still nothing.
I wonder when things will turn around. I haven’t been this slow in five or more years. So far, I’ve made less than half of my usual take.
And I can’t even seem to land a minimum wage job to help supplement my income.
It can’t go on much longer. It just can’t. My income isn’t just for extras like family vacations or clothes or things for the house, it’s also for the necessities like groceries and car repairs and insurance.
I’m beginning to panic.
But I am determined to end this post with a positive note. Therefore, I am grateful for:
1) My health (’cause things would be a helluva lot worse if I were ill)
2) My home, which I decided to clean today instead of sitting down and going over the job boards from 11:45 until 1 today. May we always be able to pay the mortgage.
3) TV and books, for taking my mind off the misery for a brief period anyway.
4) Appliances that are currently in working order, because replacing them now would really hurt.
5) My family.
